Run to Him

I am rarely lonely. I enjoy my own company.

My mom encouraged me to read. So if the book is interesting and straightforward, I often finish it the same day.

I have written for years. So the solitude is bliss.
Part of that is very healthy while a secret part uses it as a defense mechanism for withdrawing from the fray. I often  run away from conflict and let the issue fester until it has to be lanced.

That "don't rock the boat" mentality keeps the Lord out of the issue. Jesus not only rocked boats, but He stepped out of one and walked on water.

 

I am learning to love myself now and not to allow myself to be somebody's dumpster. If every time I call you, you whine, my calls will be less frequent. I will still love you, still pray for you, but I don't have to be defiled by you.

The first time I heard the phrase, Happiness is a choice, I was infuriated. I had had years of abuse. I had a right to be miserable. After all, life wasn't fair.

 

Now I know happiness is indeed a choice. I can dwell on what happened or I can seize this day and live it fully, not looking back.

 

 Paul said, in Philippians 3
¹³ Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
¹⁴ I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus."
I am here to tell you that reaching forth and pressing toward the mark brings joy!
 

Our Daddy said in Deuteronomy, "I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live:"
My choice is not all about me. It I clothe myself in self-pity, I am programming my generations to do the same.
No more! I choose life, life abundantly.

If I must run, I must run into His arms. When we run to Him He runs to us.